aeternus

Wedding & concert

2009-12-28T06:53:00.000-08:00

So many things happened in the past 2 days. I went to the wedding of my cousin. She is pretty! I want to be a bride too T^T. It should be in the next 10 years time?? hahhah! Forget it!

Her mother cried so hard on that day. I feel like I understand that feelings. Her daughter won't be with her anymore because she married out to her husbands house. Sighhhh but anyway, I wish the best for you too! Congratulation!

My brother is handsome in each day went by... Why I'm not getting prettier at all? I don't understand = =.

The day before the wedding, there is the open concert in my hometown. Som Aummara and Silly fools came to perform and it was awesome! The bands really played well!

Som Aummara is so beautiful but she has that gangster kinda character! I still like her even she is like that because it shows that she is really open her true self to us.

Before Silly Fools would perform. There was a BMX or bicycle show. This guy is not that good. He always fell and that's why I remember him. So I search his name, Toon, on internet and f-ing hell! He is the chosen one to go bmx world championship! I was like "what the fuck?"

Silly fools was super good! The band and everything just blew me away! But those fuckers just started fighting at the last song and the band just stopped and go like that! Ahhhhh! I can't take it!!! I was so high and then suddenly the song stopped and everyone was like "WHAT?" I think most people there wanted to kill them, even the MC.

Anyway, I had fun over there and I got to see my junior and he was very polite to me. Awww I feel so impressed. Hope to see him again next time ^^.

I will end here and tomorrow I will be meeting my long lost friends!!! Awww I miss them very much. Will be meeting them the nearby town. I'm so excited!

@ Pai

2009-12-22T07:24:00.000-08:00

Okay, now, let's start the trip to PAI with my family!!! Pai is a small town in northern Thailand near the Myanmar border which is in Chaingmai. I went there because I always wanted to go there so my dad granted my wish, hahah! BUT we have to complete 762 curves on the road. My sister was nearly throw up! It was fun!!!

This is the resort I lived in. Nice isn't it?
And I just lied there on the walking path = =.

Message on the shirt: reached Pai, 762 curves.

After I put everything at the resort, we went to "Tanon Khondern" or "Walking road". This place has many things to sell and the car can't go in. We bought a lot of things there and eat so many nice food. Sadly, the tempearature is not that low so it was a little bit hot and I was wearing a thick cloth so SWEATING!!!!

I got a chance to meet this guy! A producer and actor! He is a nice guy and funny! Can you believe that he has six packs on his stomach?? His name is Ping.

The next day we went to Hot Mineral Bath place but we didn't bring any clothes to change, we just dripped our legs in the warm water. It was a nice feelings!!

This is the place where we boiled the egg! I think it's about 80 c.

Got a cute picture at the site :)

We went to temple after that. This temple has only one monk stay there. He was funny hahah! I got a bracelace from him and so everyone. My heart is at peace!!!!

There is a place that seem like a chinese area. A lot of tea's shops and chinese restuarent and the place where I came across such rude people! Hate you fuckers! Don't understand why people like this still are in this world. Little manners also don't know, no one's gonna die if you behave nicely.

Went to waterfall and saw this little adorable kid. She just smiled when I asked her. Such a friendly princess.

Was at The coffe shop called "Coffee in love" but I took only "in love" because I want to be in love!! hahahah

We went to eat Vietnamese food which my sister craved for. It was so cold that time!

I got the invitation from this artist man to go to this little theater. I wasn't stay there long enough till the movie start though because we haven't eat anything so we went out and never come back although we told the man we will be back. Sorry!

Before we move on, we lit 3 lamps to go up the sky.

Message on the lamp: Aoy's kitchen is coming soon!

My resort, @ pai, was covered in the mist... Couldn't see anything in 500 meters away! That's why I like winter!

The way to go to this place is very curvy and dangerous. Along the road had many accidence happened but I wish no one injured or pass away. Pray for them. But I would say that this place is really a good place to relax because it's very quiet and people there are friendly. No steal or killing cases. I'm quite impressed actually because I didn't expect it to be this good but people who go there just ruined the place completely! Especially Bangkok-ers!!! I just realised that good people still left a lot in this world. It gives me hope that the world wouldn't be the end yet. I'm very proud that Thailand still has a good side not all the bad things that newspaper said.

If anyone wants to come to Thailand, please tell me! I will bring you around and show you how Thailand is! I'm sure you will love it as much like I do!

xoxo

(PS. feel like promoting thailand like a touring agent! hahaha)

re-update

2009-12-21T08:42:00.000-08:00

I have been away for a long long long time... I decided to re-update my blog again and I think it's a good begining for me to stop being lazy. The past year has been crazy. I cried and laugh. I think I have become matured a bit more and know how to see people although I'm not really sure but I'm still trying.

After I came back to Thailand, I stayed home for like 5 days in these 2 weeks. I was travelling around nonstop but I had fun though, haha! I was in Pai (a state in thailand) which I came across such rude people. Most Bangkok-ers are like that, don't care others but themself. I don't want to be such an evil but it's the truth. So old yet so immatured. Even a little girl knows manner is. And a postcard is meaningful if you think it is compared to twitter or facebook. Your thoughts are lo-so yet pretend yourself to be hi-so. REBIRTH again and learn what is really in this world you wanker! Stupid old lady!!!

I will upload the pic the pic tomorrow. I'm so tired today, been to another city for nana's check up.

Who the fucking hell are you?!

2009-08-13T03:59:00.000-07:00

I'm at my limits! What the hell is going on?! Was it my fault that your girlfriend pull a fight with you!? It's not at all! Oh come on!!!! How old are you already? You can't think about it by yourself then why put the blame on other people!?

The story is that yesterday was my classmate's birthday,El ,so we asked everybody to come including L. Everybody went of course and then in the end of the night he was drunk like he couldn't even stand by himself.. Why burden others? Anyway, after that Slly sent L. back home and I think L. got a big fight with his girlfriend........Today, in class, he was saying that because of me asked him to go to the party so that he has a fight with his girlfriend. And I was like it's not me who ask you go. And he was like you asked me to go yesterday, I told him it was El that asked him and he said that I don't have a responsibility to what I said to him. OK FINE!!! I asked you to go and everybody as well!!!!! I don't asked you only one person and you know that and after I got angry you said that everyone asked you? FUCK IT!!!! What are you trying to do here? It's sooooo got on to my nerves... If you know that you can't go because your girlfriend will bomb at you, why you still go? Why don't you refuse to us? You said it's because it's El's birthday and so you went there so why complaint??? I'm sick of it man!!!!! I don't want to know all about your fucking private life! Why bother to tell me? The problem is not me or others but it's you!!! it's only you, yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last time you already left me at the club all alone! Alone!!! By myself!!!!! Are you fucking nuts?! How can you left me out just like that!? I'm a girl!!! I'm not a powerful super woman who can kill a giant who may possibly drag me down to somewhere! And I already forgave you for that piece of shit already and now you come up with another completelt bullshit again! Why do you like to give me a hard time so much? Did I do anything to you? Did I hurt you one bit? This is too much for me... Why don't you just complain to El as well? I know Slly has a hard time yesterday..... Feel pity to him but yea..

L, you told me that people are like a book to you but how about yourself? Did you study all about yourself already? Who the fucking hell are you to speak with me like that? I'm trying to be nice and you totally ignore it. I don't want to be mean but you want it, do you? I will give you some... And so you know that don't play with this girl.

Flyer VS Movie

2009-06-25T08:08:00.000-07:00

Well I think I never blog in ages... Haha, who cares!? Yeah, alright, we were having a class outing on 23 June which I realised the day after that I have an orientation for school.... But I don't care!! Haha, but anyway, I still need to go for orientation part 2 tomorrow. So yea I was having fun though.

The fact that I noticed on that day,
1. It was Dommie's birthday,
2. How noisy can us be,
3. Yao Dong is an actor and that he doesn't attend school,
4. How can Dommie be so dumb for not knowing what was gonna happen,
5. How my partner, Fariise, is so caring,6. HC always has her headache,
7. How the sun can burn Dephanie's shoulder so hard,
8. How people see Shila that she is lesbian,
9. Joycy and Pooh are getting prttier,
10. How much I miss everyone and how much fun I enjoyed.

I hope to go outing again. Not so soon but not long too please! I miss all friends!!!!
It was freaking awesome thing to be able to watch the movie and come back home so late! Dephanie's dad rocks!!!! He was driving 130km/hr!!!! Nice!!!

Take care till we meet again, cheers!

The best day

2009-02-17T20:45:00.000-08:00

I dreamt about you today. You still looked so kind and wore the same white shirt as you always did. You were sleeping on our bed in our room. I went in and you woke up and greet me with my blanket on you. I came to you and hugged you on our bed. You looked at me kindly and asked me how am I. I was so pleased... I saw a lot of roses on top of our bed. It looked so beautiful as ever. Was that my gift?? I knew you were gonna give grandma as well. Thank you. Although I can be with you for only one hour, it's really enough for me. I was crying so badly after I woke up.

I miss you so much...

Your strength makes me stronger.

Thanks for everything you have done for me.
I couldn't love someone as much as I love you anymore.

I know you will always be there for me.

You will always be in my mind forever.

Dead people don't disappear after death; they continue to exist, they continue to love us.

Madness

2009-01-31T19:31:00.000-08:00

Hahah! Finally, an entry for myself!!! We went to Mr unknown's house yesterday! I like it man!! Damn!! Actually we went there for visiting of Chinese New Year... I ended up being there for photoshoot!!! Hahah!!! It was fun though!!! Mr unknown surprised that I like to take photos ( Im ean to the extreme) but he said it's ok if you wanna take photos just call him next time... >___<>

Normally, I don't think a man would open his bedroom for others to go in and play right?? This crazy person open the bedroom for us to play game!! LOLs... We were playing Golf, Tennis and Boxing. Boxing is the most tiring game ever!!! However, his house is quite empty.. I bet this couple is not a crazy-shopper type and very neat also...

Photoshoot : Happy Holiday!

Love you as always!!!

Friendship

2009-01-31T06:47:00.000-08:00

Let's talk about friendship... Ermm... It's really hard to find the friend that you can really trust, rely on or always be there for you, you know? It's like in your whole life, a true friend can be found only 1 person. But I think it's already good enough to have one at least who understand you best^^.

You can't want a friend to be like the way they you want. They have their own nature too. But I think you should talk to friends more so that can understand you better. No need to keep everything inside and it will pile up till you break down. Of course everyone has their own thinking but it would be better to share so that you won't be suffer in the future 'cause you still have to live with them till years. It's nothing wrong to keep your guard down a bit so that your friends will know your true colours and knowing what's going on in your little head.

I also think that there is a small thin wall between girls and boys... Boys have different thoughts from girls 'cause the way God create the world. Girls like to see things in a very detail and every little thing but boys think that those things have no big deal. They might be harsh sometimes but they can be gentle if you ask for. Since you already know your friend so well 'cause you already spent like 2-3 years together, you should know how to talk to them to get what you want or what you really need from that person. Talk to him nicely and I'm sure you can get you really need. Be open-minded and generous. You should be the one who ask only, listen to him to what they really want from you too.

A good friend, no need to see face to face, no need to hear the voice just see the things that you write down on paper or message in handphone also can get the hint that you feeling down or happy .

Example
Aoy: Why did you come so late?
Emma: I was alighting at somerset and walked to douby guat then I walked to the wrong direction, I was frustrated...
Aoy: So you went to cry?
Emma: yes...

Something easy like this also can be known by a close friend.
If you are really close enough to your friends and they are your true friends I'm sure they will...

listen to all the craps you say even though it doesn't make sense at all for hours,

know how to make you laugh even though you just pass a huge disaster from somewhere,

come to you no matter if it's so late or if it's so jammed in the traffic if you ask for,

just shut up, sit down and don't ask anything when you are crying uncontrollably,

always be there for you for anytime in a day or 24/7 ^^.

So don't be down by stupid things that comes up in your mind that you are not good enough, you are so useless, so hot tempered and so bad to your friends. If you did something bad to them just say sorry and they will understand that you didn't mean to do it. But sometimes please think first before you say anything 'cause it might damage your friends' hearts to pieces...

So yea friend! Please know that I will be there for you, ok!? Don't be so down and keep blaming yourself 'cause it won't do any good but worse.
So don't worry, be happy^^.
Love.

Disappointed

2009-01-21T13:20:00.000-08:00

I know it's not your fault that you are like that. I know you still want to play but it won't be me!! Understand!? It hurts to know about this fact of your personality but I don't blame you. You are not in the wrong. If you really wanna play why not go find someone else?? Why you come to me!? I'm not a person who can receive all your stupid nonsense. Today, you looked F-fing sucks, you know that!? Thank you that you didn't do anything like that to me... Gosh! why why why!?!?

I don't dare to go near you anymore.. For now..

I need to overcome this disgusting feelings first before I got the courage to talk to you again. I feel real stupid and thank you very much to let me know all your bullsh-it...

I hope I can get you out of my head. I really hope...

Why I like you this much...?

It hurts to see you like this. Please, I beg you if you wanna enjoy life just go ahead but don't let me see those things, OK?

Don't smoke too much, it's not good for your health^^" . I still care for you if not, I won't write all this entry that wasting much of my time at all....

New look

2008-12-17T05:01:00.000-08:00

I got a haircut!!! Yo!!! I look cool, ain't I? ^^

I have to cook and work everyday!!! So tiring *dies* .. Anyway I had lots of fun now~ Plus new year is coming!!! Ahhhhh!! My friends will come to my house and count down together!!! How nice it will be~

I already settled my problem *released* and I'm fine!!! So happy. Waiting for someone to be in my heart (lols!) . I promise that old memories will be kept and never erased^^. Still love you na.

Chistmas is coming soon... Everyone! Merry Chistmas!!! I hope I can be in Korea that time... Sigh, how nice it will be in the snow during Christmas *dreaming*

miss my darling

2008-12-03T02:24:00.000-08:00

Ohwww!!! I'm so dead bored,ya know!? My darling also damn busy with something = ="... Can't talk to him as much as before, sigh...*cries*

Dad and mom also made me cried like hell!!! What The Hell Is Going On!? Damn it! (please pardon me for inpropriate language used) I cried so hard today. It's like I'm being compared to my sister. I'm jealous of her, I do, but I don't hate her. She is the best sister I can ever find in my life. I don't know whether I think too much of these stupid nonsense or I really being left out. It's not that I don't love my parents but sometimes they are one-sided.

If I'm a tomboy, will mom care me or willing to do anything or buy anything for me to get back to a girl once again?

"I have money but I don't want to give you.." What kind of sentence is this to talk to a daughter like that? I know I'm not your favourite but you don't have to be until like that right? Then what you want me to do? Want me to run out of the house? Find job and make my own money? Or even begging for few coins!!!??

Did I ask anything much from you?

You don't feel grateful at all to have a daughter like me?

Most of the clothes I also bought myself since I was in secondary. Sometimes I bought a dress and it's expensive and you scolded me but when I wore it out and everyone was praising you that you know how to dress up your child... It's not true at all!

When I don't wake up early and cook for you and you complain that I'm lazy, never helps anything to lighten your your work. When I cooked you don't eat and told me that you are making so much noise.. If I eat and it's not nice then you will see... SEE WHAT!?

I want to come home to rest not to take so much shits to making up my stress again! I had enough for Os and I want to go out!!! To relax!!! You don't understand me!! You don't let me go out and I stay at home doing what!? Be a maid!? We already have! You making me that for!?

I'm glad for what you have done for me but it's not like this... This ain't right... at all....

Dad came in just now to give me a rubband, so that I won't angry at him.. What a lame excuse...

2008-11-27T18:06:00.000-08:00

Tag by Shila

I just saw her entire entry today.. Damn it I'm inside!!!!! hahahah... I mean I read through the whole entry of graduation night things but I didn't read after that^^". Okey, let's start!!!

Rules & Regulations:
#01 - Each player of this quiz starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about you. #02- People who gets tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird hings/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
**~~03 - At the end of the day, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged & list their names.~~
#04- No tags back!

**I don't tag other people for your information^^.. Most of them tag me instead~

I get irritated when someone repeats the things I already know more than once (Prang knows it best! haha).
I like to take pictures, photos and anything to do with it such as photoshop ( I think everyone can see that).
I fall in love easily *like totally!* (you can ask Nnthini to confirm this^^") - If you know this fact please don't play with me.. Thanks! But if you do I will get revenge... Be prepared! haha.
I can cook!! Really!! (It seems like nobody believes me except my close friends T^T)
I really wish to go to Egypt. I really love its history especially Pharoh >__<.
I like to bite my finger when I'm thinking..
I have no idea why I sigh so much, it occurs like 1/ 3 minutes or less (you can ask Dominic for this fact^^).
I like to do adventurous activities ( when I don't dress beautifully).
I love my family, friends, TVXQ, Bigbang, Hamilton, Thailand and dancing so badly!!!
Actually I'm not rough or hard to deal with, please understand this fact. Sometimes, I seem cold because I'm thinking or sleepy^^".

Another real fact is that I'll be very happy to see everyone happy so be joyful everyday. I will brighten your day if you are down!!! haha. (but how!? = =")

Thanks to Shila for such a interesting tag, haha!

Still liKeM as yesterday.

Motorbike license

2008-11-27T03:21:00.000-08:00

I went to the hospital yesterday. Nothing happened to me hahha, I just brought my grandma to check up. It took me like 4 hours!!! WTH!!! I don't feel like going there again~ T^T *tired* .. I pushed the wheelchair and banged here, banged there!!! Damn!!! I hit like 3 people in the way.. T^T Anyway, it went well, haha.

I got to extend the motorbike license today!! Woohoo!! It can ratain to 5 years now becuase I'm already 18!!! I woke up like the earliest since I came back to Thailand. I went to extend with my sister (dady's worker)...

I'll put up the pic later... Guess what? My lappy suddenly hanged!!!!! What the hell !!!! I was lazy so I didn't continue and now I'm at grandma's house... Can't upload picture!!!!

Tada!

Oh boy I'm so in love with you~ I don't know what relationship are we in but it seems like we are more than friend ( am I thinking all that by myself? >___<) I miss you so much....

Graduation night

2008-11-22T22:57:00.000-08:00

It was absolutely the most tiring day in this year,haha! I was runing here and there, sigh.. I forget my earings and begged Jian Wen to buy for me, WTH!? haha.. Anyway I gave a speech, I performed and made damn lots of mistakes!!! But it seemed everyone praised me too much *shy*.

Friends please read this : I am so lucky and happy to have you all as my friends!!! 3 years passed so fast and now it's time to part. I really had fun and learnt so many things in the past year. Thank you all for such a wonderful memories that we created together. I will remember you all for sure! Don't worry! To love and to forgive! haha (lame!!!)

let's see who is the most beatiful that night.

P.S. >>> I didn't take many pictures because I was giving a speech and dancing!!! So regret!!!

Thanks to Ms Ho to give the privilage to study in Boon Lay Secondary School!

And this is Hadzwan, my date for the night!! haha!! He can dance!!!

The best of me!

I went well though~ Nanthini, Yaodong, Minghoe and me went to ARENA after that^^Nanthini and me dance like crazy!

I was a date with Minghoe and Nanz with Yaodong haha. My date is the best!! Minghoe is so gentelman!We went back home around 3.I was dead tired already.It was super tiring day!!!! But I really had fun though! Next time be my date again, Minghoe!!!What a guy! So handsome, cute, adorable!!! I'm so honoured *heart heart*

Minghoe : I'm so proud of you of what you have become. Don't get tired of life and fight for what you believe it's the best. You have experienced so many things, I'm sure you will succeed in life! Hang in there!

I didn't know that the result will come out on 1o Jan! Hiaz!!! I need to go back then come back again... Ah waste my money! But I promise my friends already so yea I think I still will go~

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I think I forget this picture^^ haha... I just found in Elfi blog... Why I don't have!? It's from my camera right? If i'm not wrong...

Anyway, thanks to momojang to lend me the hat and sorry to threw your hat during the performance ^^".

Release stress!

2008-10-28T07:12:00.000-07:00

I know Os is still going on tomorrow!!! But I'm too stress la!!! No mood to study!!! This is really suck I know but what to do!? So I found something to release my stress! Hohohooo~ I became a model!! Woohooo!!! Self-model, anyone heard of it? hahah let's see!

Self-model set

Aoy-style set

Hahah!!! That's all~~~

I'm pretty, ain't I??? ^^

Super upset!

2008-10-17T07:06:00.000-07:00

I went to West Mall to watched movie with my sister. Max Payne was the movie's name. It was fun though but the ending was like O_O? It like just cut off. I bet it will have part two for sure. Max Payne was made from a game. I just knew it when I was finding it's trailer on YouTube.

We went to eat before the show. We used only 16 minutes to eat up 'cause when my sister reached West Mall was already 7.16 and the show was at 7.30.... = =" We entered the cinema around 7.40 and it already started! Geee!!! Sigh... Whe the show finished we went to comic shop. I called out 'onnie' then one guy turned. *embarrass* But yea he seemed to stare at me for a while and kept looking if I'm wrong... Did he followed me?? I don't know, may be he wanted to see a gift for someone or may be he wanted to see the movie that played inside the cd stall or he might see his girlfriend at the bukit Batok station... I was hoping that he would get my number.. What a waste, he didn't come to me. Sigh... My sister said I think too much, yea may be....

Why I have no luck with boys!!!??? Pathetic....

Os started

2008-10-16T21:48:00.000-07:00

On 15 oct, I have Thai exam.. It was hard but as usual I came out after 1.5 hours.. I can't stay for 3 hours you know. I guess Prang did better than me. At least, she wrote the format of the letter correctly. Sigh.. I did not write the format at all and according to the instruction of 150 words but I bet others wrote about 1 and half pages. Never mind that, I don't care about it anyway.

Yesterday was my Science Practical exam. Surprisingly, Physics was so easy although I didn't do the last question but I was able to draw a graph and answer the calculation question. Chemistry?? It was terrible! I mean I know how to do, I know what was present and what was not. But the conclusion part was so.......!!!! I don't know how to write and I just wrote crap... = =" Whatever it was or would I do well or not, I wont' bother about it now.

During the waiting period, we (me, nanthini, emma, thi and shila) were playing truth or dare. It was fun though. First dare of mine was to touch CCY's leg and smile at him but it turned out I lugged at him instead. His face was like (??) hahah, it was cute though. I didn't do truth at all 'cause it's boring you know. We already don't have a secret and I don't wanna know other stuff much also. First dare of thi's was to go to talk to Ms Tan but she didn't want so she talked to the wall instead although it looked like she laughed at the wall. First dare of shila's was to tell Arif Zul that she loves him^^. I like that part. I called Arif Zul to come to us and then he really came then shila kept laughing then she said that your hair was so nice, your body was something I couldn't remember all then she said that's why I love you. He was like what ?? you what??? hahh but his sense was fast he asked whether we play truth or dare. He was good! (I mean in a sense and looking^^") Then nanthini's dare was to bully YJ like asked for her to break up with her boyfriend 'cause nans was in love with him. hahahah!!!! Mr Li!!! I also don't want la....oops sorry... ^^" She was so shocking I thought although I didn't' go to her also but her face seemed like she doesn't know what to do. Then nans came back and laugh said that our classmate were so intended to know what was going on. *giggles* My second dare was to go to Li and told him that I like him and will he consider to break up with YJ and come to me. *vomiting* He did say 'No'... I was quite disappointed but in the end he said that YJ said that he is her toy and she is just playing with him... What a girl... His message behind this seem to mean that he would come to me if YJ dump him... = =. BAKA! Never mind, I don't care, it was a dare.

I like hadzwan. He is so good and changed a lot after having his new girlfriend. I bet she is very kind and understanding. Yesterday, he asked me so I am single now. Of course then I said nobody wants me. He laugh and said no no. He asked me whether my heart ache when lilijang broke up with me. I hesitated to say but I said "yes, a bit". He was like oh so it's like that. He offer me a favor that he would find a new boyfriend for me,haha. How nice of him, he also said that he can find any races which race I want. I burst out with laughter, haha. I said I don't want to think about it right now, I don't want to have. Like he can see through me, he said that I don't want to be hurt anymore. I was shock a bit but yes it is. I don't want to be hurt anymore, too painful T^T. But then I said got 2 old men are after me, they are 31 of age. He laugh again and criticised me. I acted like I was upset and he was apologising me a lot. I was kidding I told him. He still confirmed that he wants to find me a boyfriend but I smiled and walked away. If he doesn't have a girlfriend, I think I will go for him. haha. What a nice guy.

I love Chuck Bass. Well, after I watched gossip girl. I'm totally in love with him although his eyes were for blair lol. But yea, I love him 'cause he's a playboy and yet he loves only one person although their relationship seems to be complicated but I give this couple 10 points.
I can't imagine that he is english. He speaks American so fine. However, I like his British accent more, so sexy. I like the way he plays the role of Chuck, it wans't so him. He doesn't seem so much like a playboy in reality. He seems more gentleman instead. That's why I couldn't help but in love with him.....!!! *hotness*

P.S. I wanna go back Thaialnd so much....

Thai

2008-10-14T08:53:00.000-07:00

I know I'm Thai and I supposed to be good at the language of my own. But... Actually it has been terrible lately. I just realised how sucks my thai is... *scary* I can speak perfectly fine but writing... it's pretty bad now. Sigh.. I was reading thai news and listening to thai songs. I also finished one of thai book named "The super artist girl and the terrible programmer". It was so fun and amusing! Haha... I guess I will sleep early today... But now already like 12.... This is early? Baka janayo!

Weekends

2008-10-12T08:12:00.000-07:00

I went to school on Friday. It was nothing much, I didn't learn much I mean. I rather stay at home study. I went there for the sake of science practical briefing but it was like nothing to me. Sigh...

Went to Erah's house for Hari Raya on Saturday. Her mom was so beautiful and kind!! I went there with Nanthini only. Emma failed us by not coming.. No need to talk about it. I was eating more than the one who said hungry, that was Nanthini. She was the one who complaint all the time that she was so hugry to death but in the end, she ate like half of my food = =. Erah's cousin was very cute! His name is Riski (?) I guess I remember correctly. He was coming to me and sit on my leg, YAY!!!! How adorable! I gave him a kiss before boarding the bus^^ .

Why I look so odd(ugly) in theses pics!? Sigh....

I was having a tuition today. It was so hot (dead)! Studying amaths like crazy and still don't know how to do that much! SAD! It was so frustrating because I don't know how to do work and the guys who sit around me were talking about sex = =. In your heads have only these kinda things huh!? Sigh... Before reached home, I was kinda shopping alone, haha. What I bought? Hahhaha! All the foods, of course!

When I got home, everyone was shouting and in chaos. I wonder what was happening and then they were blaming me that I forget to bring my handphone... I forget my handphone so what I thought... They said uncle and aunty were asking to go have a dinner outside. My sister immediately called aunty said that Aoy was back, so yea we got to eat outside!!! hahaah.

We went to eat steam boat, yay!!! We were eating like crazy ( like we never eat anything for 5 days). The first order came then finished fast. Aunty ordered again and finished. The third order seemed slower, hahaha. But in the end, there was the fifth order, hahahha!!! Power!!!

I was playing camera with me sister after eating finish... Love her ^^

P.S. >> Need to study for the sake of Os!!! Hang in there!!!

In love

2008-10-09T02:18:00.000-07:00

The past loves make guys look disgusting in my eyes... Eeehh! They are too boing and awful. Sigh... However, I don't mean to anyone so don't take it to heart^^. I want a real man, ya know, like really man. Not the type of unstable and unsteady. I'm 18 now and I can't see the guys of my type. They must be around 20 something.. When I will meet??

And There is this guy who is after me. He is old! Around 30 and yet come for me. Why am I so attractive to the old man? He ssems nice but kinda off to the odd purpose. So I told him to get lost. I know I'm not that good but I'm polite enough to tell him. I don't wanna give hope.. The ones who do are the worst. They make you fell and in the end don't want to respond to what they did. These guys are totally and really **** off!

Although I don't like playboy but I find them attractive. Of course they do, if not how can they be a playboy. Playboy have two types. First, they don't care about girls and see girls as thier toys. They are just bastard but I guess they can be a very good friend to you. So if you have this kind of persn make them your friends better. Second, they flirt around but they only love thier girlfriend. This type is more to be with. I would love to! Hellooo! Any this tyoe of playboy out there!?

I'm going to school tomorrow and get some paper of sciences back to practice^^" . I hope teachers won't yell at me (sorry for not going to school).

What is going on?

2008-10-09T01:34:00.000-07:00

All right here are the problems... What is going on around me? I don't know.. I don't wanna care but those people are close to me and all... Is my expectation too high for you all? Or I think too much?? Or you are really the worst after all??

It doesn't make any sense.

I don't blame anyone AT ALL if you don't wanna go grad night. It's up to you people. If you don't wanna come for your sake or for my sake or whoever sake then don't give a damn! Although I want you to come to hear my speech out and to be there to cheer for me, it's your choice. I don't wanna hear 'Oh I might go, I'll see first.' Can you make people trust you like that in the future? How are you gonna handle important thing when in the future you are the head of all? If you already decided so be it. No need to depend on others. They can't help you, they will never feed you when you are hungry or give you money when you are brankrupt. Please wake up and understand the real world!

Tell me straight or immediately when there is anything to do with me. Do not wait till next year then open your mounth. I won't die after knowing something. Even though it makes me sad or disappointed, I'll more happy when you don't keep things away from me. Are you that scared of me? Or are you afraid that I will hit you to death? ARE YOU CRAZY TO THINK LIKE THAT?? Please.. I'm not that kind of person. I know I will make noise but it will go off after sometimes. So why would you take time to sew your mounth up and not to tell me. Isn't it better that you take 1-2 minutes to tell me instead of hiding from me for a week?

And when I try to make up something or to talk to someone after they accidentally say something they shouldn't out, there must be some people get wrong idea.. I do not understand this... What do you think?? I will scold you?? I will swear at you?? Or I will kill you? Oh COME ON!!!! Am I like that to you?? Am I that violent in your eyes?? I'M DISAPPOINTED! How many years we are together now? And you still don't know me. I wanna cry to death after realising that you know? How hurt it is you know that or not? Oh yea how can you know, you don't even understand me... Pathetic loser!

Now I really wanna be alone...

Seriously....

After all this things happened, it makes me realised so much that I shouldn't have a high expectation.

Although how I wish I would want you to get the same feelings as mine, it doesn't make any good 'cause I believe in karma. Actully I don't wanna hurt you and make you suffer like I do 'cause I know if you get this it wil break you through your small bone and you won't be able to stand. I'm a good friend, ain't I? Sigh....

This is the unfair world anyway, what can I say...?

how lazy I can be....?

2008-10-07T08:26:00.000-07:00

It doesn't do any good when I go school. I'll become complacent that I already study at school so I can slack at home. But actually it's not!!! I just bluff myself through T^T. After went to school for a week that nearly to Os, I just realised that I didn't do revision at all. Woke up so early, travelled all the way to school, have tuition at afternon and night make me tired till I don't have time for revising!

Why am I like this!!??

That is the reason I asked my guardian to call vice-principal to confirm that I can study at home, sigh... Last weekend spent whole time with da and ma. No rivision has taken place at all... And I need to use the whole of monday to rebuild myself, to re-motivate myself again... When I start to read Geo, it was already 12 something T^T... Why....?

Today woke up at 9.30, wrote a bit of notes for Geo continued from the previous night... Arghhh! And I gone with 'day-dreaming' again. Why is it so difficult to focus on study?? Can someone tell me?? I tried, of course, but I guess it's not enough....

I hope I can do well.... I really hope that my laziness won't be so strong and capture me not to do anything!!!!

After reading huiching blog I wanna study a bit (a bit only). But I will study again tomorrow... I can't study till 2 or 3 am although yesterday I was up around 1 something T^T. It just happened, sometimes... Not ALL the time but I want it to be, sigh....

Never mind.. Let's hang in there! ^^

Parents with me

2008-10-06T00:20:00.000-07:00

My parents arrived on 3rd october and I went to pick up them late. Actually, I didn't pick them at all, we met later at the hotel. It was because I didn't see the time. By the time I was ready to go out of the house, they already arrived at the airport... What a daughter, sigh...

Anyway, after we met at the hotel, we came back to Signature Park to put all the things that mom and dad brought for me from Thailand! Woo Hooo!! A lot of foods!!! haha. We went to buy more foods at West mall to BBQ at night YAY!

Mom prepared and made so many things, of course I did help! Meme and Maii also helped out^^ I was so happy! We took around 2 hours to settled everything, phewww.. So here we were!

We were quite lucky I guess, haha. It was drizzling that time and had a thunder as well but it ended up never rains! Thanks god!^^ Oh yea, this BBQ was for my sister's birthday.... >_< ! I am quite jealous of her since my parents came for her birthday but not mine but never mind at least they came to visit me^^.

Happy Birthday To You!!!

The next day we went to Orchard and walked around the town then ate at swensens (? spell like that? ). We had a great time though and we went to find speaker but couldn't and we came back home. Mom said she swill send the speaker from Thailand to me instead haha!!!

They went back to Thailand yesterday!!! Why they have to go back so fast!? I still want them to stay here T^T. Homesick in progress....

Never mind, dad will come again, he told me. So let's work hard for Os!!!!!

Aoy hangs in there!!!!!

F1 fever

2008-09-29T07:51:00.000-07:00

I didn't go to school today.. Of course from the F1 fever ( same to Shila)... How I wish I could see the race at there but I have no ticket = =".. At least I wanna see HAM!!!! *slap slap* Aoy wakes up!!!! Don't think about that anymore! Shame to myself, sigh....

I was up around 5.30am but considered to sleep again due to my laziness so yea it was too powerful that I couldn't get myself up. I woke up again around 10.30am ^^". My sister was up around the same and she went out to school so I was quite alone at home. Since my tension has not gone down from last night, I was studying whole day. *satisfied* Doing geography ( green revolution), emaths 2 pages, physics read through and amaths lastly^^!!! So proud of myself!

I had tuition just now. Pheww!! He told that I caught up!!! Woo Hooo! Of course I did, was staying up whole day for studying! No regrets for now but do not know about the next day. My laziness might just pop up and control me not to do anything again! Hope that day will be after O' levels!!!

Daddy and mommy is coming on 3rd Oct... YEAH!!!! He said he would come to celebrate my sis's birthday... I am jealous a bit >_<" sigh.... But never mind, it's alright, I will damn happy already as long as you both come^^.

F1

2008-09-28T06:50:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!! The sound of car racing is the best!!! I want a ticket!!! I wanna see HAM.. really... Since the dream ast night, I found out who he is.. I never imagine that I will drown to him this bad ^^".. I believe my soul has travelled with you. It seems

How can I have such a dream and I didn't even know who he is at the 1st place... He is so charming outside and inside my dream. I guess he is a gentleman^^... hehe Just fond for him... *melting*

HAM, do your best!! I support you!! You are an amazing racer!!! I know it best!!!

my beloved friend

2008-09-23T07:26:00.000-07:00

I believe that no one is perfect... Everyone makes mistake and what is done cannot be changed...

It's not like it's going to happen if you fail your exam or lost your money and everything... You still have you, yourself, which the most important thing you have to remember. You have to believe in yourself. Even though you have done something really wrong or you really have no more strength to move, prove to yourself that I won't die because of this. There are people who are still waiting for you.. There are still people who care for you... There are many people who love you... There is god who will lead your way...

Sometimes you might think you did something really bad and those good feelings won't come back, of course it won't... When something is damaged, it can be repaired but it won't be the same anymore. However, you can build a new one that even better than the damaged one... You can build in anyway you want it to be, it up to you and the only you.. And don't forget how the old thing got damaged and don't repeat the same mistake again... The power is in your hand. The matter is you want to do or don't want to... That's all..

Boys won't be able to understand girls.. They are less sensitive compared to girls. Emotional and unpredictable, girls are like that.. But it depends on the characteristics of the person. I dont' mean that all the girls and like that and guys are like this but usually yes.. ( I also sometimes ^^") That's why boys are so opened and senseless and make girls tell them or scold them... Actually there are nothing inside thier minds.. Sometimes they speak without thinking or they do because they do not know what to do anymore... And boys can't resist not to have girls in the world, believe me?? hahahah ( Thai's comedian said that^^)

Thinking too much can cause a migraine to your precious head. I had it a lot since I came to singapore.. = =" (too stress!!) haha So yea don't think too much... Every problem has its own solution so think slowly and you will find the way out ya^^!

You may think that you would be alone in the heavy mist in the place you don't know...Please remember that I'm here... For you... I'm always there inside your heart...Not just me but god as well! No matter how scary it would be, you will be fine because you are not alone. Your beautiful soul will fight within you if you have faith in yourself.. ( I don't know if this is correct?) So yea don't give up and be thick face hahaha!!!!!

P.S. I love you (Cheyyy movie's name!)
I really do^^!
Don't be so down,ok?

I know you will be alright...
Let's work hard for this stupid Os together!
Hang in there, partner!!

Guilty

2008-09-03T06:56:00.000-07:00

Arghhhhh!!!! I'm so pressurized!!!! Disappointing myself and him at the same time.. What a person I am?! I shouldn't be like this!! Where is all my energy!? I need towork hard and be good.. I'm so sorry, you made me feel so guilty today T^T... But it's true that I don't know a lot of things you said.. *sobbing*

I know what I should do but I still so slack!! Arghh!!! What to do!? I'm such a lazy girl in this world!!! I wish I could have half of my mum's power! Sigh... I will work harder and watch out!!! My victory will come back!!!

Happy Birthday!!!

2008-09-01T08:13:00.001-07:00

Happy Birthday To Me!!!!

Finally I'm 18!!! How sad.. T^T I become older by one year sigh.. My size and my age is imbalance!!!!! Hahaha nevermind, forget it!

I really enjoyed my birthday party(sort of)... They came to surpirse me!!! I was shocked though. I didn't espect lots of people to come hahha! Anyway, I recieved the cake same as last year^^"...

However, it's nice to me though my sister and few other don't like it. I apprecite everyone who come to my house and your presents and your wishes for me! Thank you so much! You all made my day!!!!

1. Bear in the plastic - Anna

2. Lamp - Lilijang

3. Doraemon doll - Huiching, Dominic, Yaodong, Hardiana, Momojang

4. Earings - Idros

5. Earphone - Potae, Park, Bank

6. Ice tray - Prang, Dephanie, Shila

7. White dog doll - Nanthini

8. Bracelet - Amp

Not in picture

9. Mirror - Mind

10. Doraemon key chain - Huiching

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I hope that my food satisfied you all a bit 'cause I was really rush through things and didn't really care much about the taste of the food.. Sorry if it's too sour or spicy^^" ( didn't mean to)!

Really love you guys!!!!

This is my sweetest birthday I ever had! haha! Thank you once again all!!!

HBD to Jian Wen

2008-08-11T00:09:00.001-07:00

Happy belated birthday!!! I hope my soup and fried pork and chicken satisfied you a bit haha! You didn't realise it, do you? The purpose that I went to cook and followed you the whole day because it was for your birthday boy!!! Sorry for not being able to join Shila, Prang and Emma on Sunday 'cause I had a tuition ^^". Anyway, I knew you have a fun and precious time^^!!
I guess my present for you is a bit childish but after knowing you like it then phewww~ ^^.

Wish all the best thing for the adorable friend like you!!!
Love & care^^

National day's celebration

2008-08-08T08:50:00.000-07:00

I didn't update my blog for a long time now... why?? I was lazy of course hahaah!!!!

First thing I wanna mention is that WE WON for the prize of national day !!! My energy and effort didn't go to waste! I'm so happy hahah. But we got only chocolate!!!!(????)

I woke up at 5 just to go to school early to help my friends to tie the scorpion's hair... In the end everyone came so late!! Nanthini and I were the only two who can tie like that?? Sigh... But it turn out fine at last and I didn't get to tie the scorpion hair but two sides instead (no time.. I only tied for Darshaini half head also T^T sorry). I feel like I look like a puppy somehow, tied hair like that^^".

It was damn fun today though... I just couldn't believe that we would win but it's so obvious haha, Dephanie and others already prepared to jump up for celebrating our class when the time for annoucing the prize ^^. I love this class so much !!! 5'1 is the best of all!!! Nathini and Meena were dancing with the slow song of Singapore hahah, their faces and moves are so funny! It's great that they have a good time together ^^. Mr Koh said that he is lucky to have us as his class, it's so obvious again that he would be happy haha! Mr Tay said that I acted cute today... Aiya!! Teacher you didn't look at camera, that's why I acted like that!! And one more thing... I already cute ok?? No need to act hahaha!!! (just kidding^^)

I haven't got all the photos from Dephanie then she went offline = =.... Never mind that, I will

ask from her the other day.

I don't know what to do anymore... This is too much for me to take... When I think I get rid over you , I get back to a square one... What should I do now?? Should I give up?? These questions are repeating inside my head....

I already lower my guard down and you become worse... I prefer not to see your face and stay in my dream to know that we can make it work, we can work out together....

No matter how hard I try, you won't concern it anyway.. So why should I care?? Do I care for you too much?? Why am I being like this!?!?

I'm so tired now... I want to sleep till the deepest and never wants to wake up...

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มันเย็นชาเกินไปที่ฉันจะรับไหว
ถ้าเธอเบื่อกันก็เลิกเถอะ

ฉันทนเธอก็ทน แบบนี้จะมีความสุขมั๊ย

แต่อยากบอกไว้ ฉันรักเธอเหลือเกิน

ฉันเฝ้าวิงวอนขอให้ทุกอย่างดีขึ้น

เพราะฉันไม่อยากให้วันนั้นมาถึง
วันที่เราต้องเลิกรา....

P.S. >> I love you so much^^

Tag from Shila

2008-07-15T05:55:00.000-07:00

I won't answer question 17 - 33 becuase I don't want to tag to others (Is that possible??).

This tag is just for SHILA only, if anyone want me to tag directly to that person please say so I don't mind answer the question, haha.

Let's start!

1. The person who last tag you is:

2. Your relationship with him/her is:

She is my best friend!

3. Your five impression of him/her:

Talkative, pretty, helpful, kind, irritating.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:

She gave me boot!!! haha (Thank you!)

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you:

"I can't resist you! You are irresistable!"

6.If he/she become your lover, you will :

Hug her with all my strenght, haha!

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be:

Let me hug you, please! Don't be scared, I will hug you only haha.

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will:

Slap her face one time then ask her "how dare you become like this?!"

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be:

Too talkative till I can't stand her...

10. The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is:

Give her a hug then tell her that "Don't be too stress!!!!"

11. Your overall impression of him/her is:

A very helpful girl that will find any way to help within her limitation.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?

I think they see me as a violent girl(?), haha... I guess so^^"

13. The characters you love of yourself are:

Cheerful, optimistics and stubborn.

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate yourself are:

Weak, emotional and sensitive.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is:

I stillwanna be myself^^.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:

Thank you for your understandings and caring, I appreciate it all! Love you!!

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P.S. >>> My darling is in pain.. Things seem to get worse! Why!? I want my darling to recover faster.. See he's like this, I'm suffering too...

Myself

2008-07-05T21:38:00.000-07:00

Again... Today I don't want to go for my tuition... The place is too far you know!!! Haiz = =.. Why this year everything seems so tough?? My weakness is increasing from 2 or 3 points to 100 points now!!! Hate I'm being weak, untidy annd kept in!!!

O level?? I will pass for sure but don't know yet when I will start my revision... = =.

I woke up because of something in the head was showing some kind of picture.. I can't remember it but it caused me to wake up. Then Nanz called me to tell me something, yea thank you!!! I love you too.

Shila is still sick... Hope she will recover faster. Smile more please ^^ your face suits sile more than a maximum curve^^.

I felt it since I was in Thailand. I'm scared... I'm so scared to face something so painful again.. Really.. That's why I can't function myself properly?? Until so many people notice it?? Wah this is really something.. That's why I got a Three swords.. Yea then I realised T^T.

Never mind, Aoy, cheer up!!!!! Face again once more you won't die right??? (but it seems too much) Aoy you can do it!!!! Pretty girl hang in there!!!!

Hancock

2008-07-05T04:10:00.000-07:00

I went to watch movie today. Prang had her date(Emma's cousin, don't remember his name) and me with Emma and April. Actually, I expected something from Emma cousin but it turned out like that, so I guess I can't blame anyone. But he is really damn annoying and irritating!! I understand Emma's situation very well, I think...

So yea, we were watching the movie, Hancock is the movie name. It was so awesome!!!! Better than WANTED though. I love you Will Smith, I really do!!! Hell, he has got some nerve^^. But the movie line is so touching... I was crying and sobbing damn hard, Emma was shocked. April was even worse, she was speechless... And Prang scolded me for crying so hard = =. I also don't know why I cried so hard for = =. But I just understand how it feels for not being able to stay with the one you really love. How hard and pain, to bear to move on without looking back. Even you do know the reason for moving on, you still can't forget the feelings. I comprehend how one fight hard for the other to live although the pain is excruciating. Am I too sensitive for these kind of things? I didn't predict that I will cry today. My feelings' so overwhelm until now... I can't get rid of it. Damn!!!

I really love this movie... It taught me many things, really... Will Smith is love!

Headache

2008-07-01T05:48:00.000-07:00

I skipped school today!!! haha... I have a headache = ="... I feel so tired, why is that so? My head is damn heavy or because I sleep too much? I slept like never sleep for 3 days, since yesterday till 12 pm today and then woke up, showered and ate lunch... After that went back to sleep again from 1 to 3... This is so insane, sleeping for the whole day and yet never feels better! So I took a medicine then went out for a walk, it made me feel fresh a bit (just a bit, really)... My guardian seemed to be worried for me, thank you, I aprreciate that^^.

I didn't eat much dinner. I was not hugry at all, I wanted to vomit instead= =". I called my mom then told her that I'm sick so she passed the phone to dad. My dad asked me whether I am really sick or woke up late and put the reason I'm sick! hahah.. That's my dad, he knows me best. But I really sick... So he just asked me to take medicine. I wanna go back home!!!! Homesick?? I guess so....

English is really difficult... For me... I don't really understand it and sometimes get the wrong idea. It makes me happy but yet sad. You know how it feel for not being able to understand? This is hard... really hard...

I still don't know tomorrow I will go to school or not. If I never go means I have to go see doctor! Is my body condition bad or my heart...? I don't know

I seem to be strong but actually I am very weak.... I hate it!!! Damn!!!
Why my entry today is so emo?? = ="

Fun time

2008-06-28T18:27:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to watch "WANTED" with Nanthini, Yao dong and Jian wen. This movie is damn damn nice and totally cool! Curve the bullet, haha. Angelina Jolie was so hot and beautiful even though she is getting older but she still really pretty! No wonder why Brad Pit went after her^^. But how sad, She died at the end of the movie T^T. Too bad, Shila, Idros and Emma never comes = =...

After a movie we went to eat something...Only me and Yao dong who is eating. I went to Nanthini's house when we separated at the interchange. I went to her house to dance! haha. It's been a long time since we danced together. But I already sensed the day before that somehow I'll get to dance with Nanthini, haha! So we danced, it was very fun though^^. We sweat like hell but yea, exercise is good for health, haha! Love you so much!

Nijang is LOVE *heart heart*

I went to see lilijang after that... He had a macth yesterday and he won! Although he never score... but CONGRATULATION!!!! haha. I think I walked him home.. He seemed to be very tired and so I am but we still walked = = sigh... But it was good, we talked a lot or may be I was the one who spoke and he just listened and responed with ' yea ' haha...

I love you ^^

I don't want to go for tuition!!!! Hate it!!!! I mean I'm lazy ....= =

Today after a bad day of tuition I met this guy on the bus... He was disabled and couldn't walk properly. I gave him a glance and smiled at him. He came to sit beside me but I didn't pay much attention on him... After reaching his stop I looked up to him again and smiled at him when he was at the bus door. He gave me a big smile and waved at me and said 'BYE' so loud!!! I waved back to him.. After he left I realised something important... I mean I should be good to everyone. How lucky I am already to born in such a good condition and be able to do everything. Compare to them I am nothing... They need to face so many difficulties and hard time... He made felt so good till I cry!!!! Thank you...

I will express my love to everyone who needs it... The world will become more beautiful^^...

Things around

2008-06-26T03:12:00.000-07:00

First, I want to say....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DOMINIC!!!

I wish him happiness, be healthy, be cheerful and smile always!!! ^^

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Things around me just seem to be very complicated and bad... When I have an expectation on something, that things will turn out the other way round = =. It's a cycle of life, my master said that. I believe it too but it seems too much.. Or I think too much??

I heard Shila cried today... When I heard that my heart dropped till my feet ^^" (over reaction?). I mean I just want Shila to keep on going. Take comments and reflect on yourself. Do not be scared and learn from your mistake. Work hard and prove that you can do it... That's the key of success and victory!!!

Since I was slacking and playing like no tomorrow, I just realised I have to do some works and revision for myself. What is Miss Alex and Madam Foo told is totally correct. I don't have much time left to waste now. I know that best but why am I still being like this?! Get to yourself!!!! Aoy be good!!! *slap slap*

I already solved one of my problem now it's another one... Challege is always on its way, I hope I will be able to handle it^^". Friends will always be friends and I won't forget you of course!!! How could I forget such a good friend like you!!!! Thanks for being so direct and now I know what I have to do and I know what I really want...^^ 2nis are always <3!

Finally I have such a courage and you just seems like thrown it in front of me, although you didn't do it on purpose.. It's not a big deal, really. But It kinda sad and disappointed.. May be beacause our thinkings and beliefs are different, that's why... I don't mind but don't do it too often, I won't be able to bring my courage up in a while. And you might be disappointed as well...^^

It seems like I have wrote so much of nonsense things! But to me it's not^^.

iLI is love as always...

School - Friends

2008-06-17T04:15:00.000-07:00

Wah!!! Finally I'm at Singapore!!! Sunday I was still in Thailand... It just like a dream! Sigh.. I miss Thailand now. Anyway, let's stop about Thailand.. I'm so touched when I reached Singapore. The time I on the phone the message came in right away and it was Jian Wen! Welcome me back, then I was like "Wah! Thanks for thinking of me!" There are many people welcome me back here like Faris also knew that I was already back to Singapore and he welcome me back on msn. It just surprised me ^^.

Sunday - after came back home, I went out again with Prang and Jeff. We went to eat and shop. We was walking around to find a present for Potae. Jeff and I have the same idea, that's a belt. We went to so many places to find one belt and agreed on Levi's. We bought it, if I'm not wrong it's about $47 after discount from Singapore sale.

Yesterday - ninijang cancelled our meeting because she had a class at 10 instead of ending at 10 (so I woke up early for nothing... = =") Thus, I just went out to meet lilijang at 3 and we watched movie at 350... "The Happening", what kind of movie is that!!!?? The wind just blow then after that the time will be like stopping then people will walk backwards, repeat whatever they say again and kill themselves!? OMG!!! There are no solution at all! "Why are we watching that movie?", that's the question keep asking lilijang... I mean it doesn't make any sense like it says people are killing themselves because of the toxic in the air and when the wind blow the people will absorb it and kill themselves and the Dr said it was a warning?? = =" I just don't get this movie... I never see the trailer, that's why I don't know... Pity to myself T^T.

Today - I went to school late. It's the 1st day of this week of school's remedial and I woke up early and then I couldn't catch the bus and the MRT was so crowded!!!! Why are there so many people in Singapore now!? I was waiting like half an hour to get into the train. The train passed me like 3 times before I got in the fourth one = =" ... Bad day. But I was just happy that the teacher didn't swear at me eg. Madam Foo. She just smiled at me (is it a good or bad sign?) and taught us maths. I was surprised though, haha. Me, Jian Wen and Shila went to watch Kungfu Panda after school. It was awesome!!!! The Panda was just too damn cute ( just like Jian Wen, oops!)!!! Shila and I just keep nagging and kidding to Jian Wen about the Panda story, haha. It was fun to disturb people though^^.

I don't take photo lately but I want to edit the photo and put in the blog so much = ="....

I don't know what you think... You seem so mysterious and I just didn't get you sometimes... It's fine with me everything, I don't mind if this will happen...

Still love iLI as always

Revenge

2008-06-05T07:57:00.000-07:00

It's not like I'm bad but I have my limit. You think who you are? You can did that to me??!! YOU ARE TOTALLY WRONG!!! I'm not a toy or whatever thing you think I am! I'm a person, a human, a girl who has her own feelings and rights! So now, you really pissed me off!

So you said you love me,

so you said you miss me,

so you said you are happy for me that I've got a new boyfriend,

so you hugged me,

so you kissed me,

so you cried for me,

so you think I agreed that I love you too,

so that I will break up with iLI then go back to you!!!??

You are MT FCK BITCH!!!!! I am very very disappointed with you! You know what?! Even though I break up with iLI, I still won't go back to you! You are really really really a devil, moron, bitch, baby and coward!!!! I couldn't imagine how did I love you so much last time. I had cried enough for you!!! REALLY ENOUGH!!!

Thus, my acting skill is good huh? I can be a drama queen right? I KNOW I'M GOOD SO GET YOUR ASS OFF FROM ME!!! Whatever you've done to me is really meaningless now, even if it's on purpose or not. I won't see you as a good person anymore! WE ARE OVER NOW!!!

I hate a person who won't listen to me. Using power over me because you are a boy or someone higher than me. I will tell you now that I can be worse than you ever think! So stay away and don't get the F... with me! You will be in grave danger...

I still love iLI, don't worry... I love you and don't be this type of person, I will be damn disappointed! I trust you so don't let me down ok? ^^

Temper

2008-05-29T23:19:00.000-07:00

I really hate it when people throw a temper on me... I mean if you don't like it or I do anything wrong then just tell me nicely that you don't like or you hate the way I do so I will understand. You are temmoered, I also tempered. You think I like when you are mad and angry with me? OF COURSE NOT!!! Nobody likes that! OMG! Dad, why you did this to me!? I love you, you know? You disappointed me a bit but what can I do you are my dad afterall... I will think that I'm wrong...

I'm going to visit my friends at another province today(YES~!!!). I hope I can go there soon but at this time, my dad is having a meeting with his guest!!! And I don't know what time he will finish T^T...

I wish I can go back to Singapore faster... Now I miss there so much hahhaha. Jian Wen even count the day for me..I'm so touched! I miss Nanthini, Shila, Emma, Prang, Jian Wen, Idros, Prang, Huiching and many more!!!

You are so demanding, desparate, arrogant, stubborn and childlike yet I love you so much.... I will be missing you 'cause I can't online... And yesterday you also never online = =" sad... But I will be loving you and missing you always^^, my love.

My feelings

2008-05-25T08:34:00.000-07:00

I've lived for 17 years now. I think I've passed through too things for this age. It's not like I hate to grow up but at the same time I just want the time to stop. My life is totally fixed! I have been so tiring of this life but I just couldn't do anything. I want to have a freedom, I don't like to be isolated by anyone. It's just like a bird is inside the cage. I like to dream, I like beling myself. But the surroundings just blend me into another thing that I don't want to be... To tell the ture, I never dreamt and never want to have such a luxury life or a big house or a room full of teddy bears. I just want to be a normal girl who live and have ordinary life like a country girl. I'll be very pleased to be like that. I hate a big house without a lot of people. It feels like so quiet and lonely and liveless = =. I like small house which every member stay together with a smile fills on their faces. However, it will never happens in reality...

In fact, reality is scary than anyone could imagine. People live, people die and people fight. They fight for their rights although sometimes it's too much and even cause somone's life. Those people is scary. I don't like to compete, may be my point of view is quite strong to this extent. I mean everyone can live together without competing, power or selfishness. But this world is just changed as time passes and people forget the truth about living.

Love is just something that give me power and happiness. I like to watch people success, it makes me happy. But it's so heart breaking to see someone suffer. However, the ture is that God judge us equally and everyone get back what they've done. God loves his children and never want to punish if his children aren't wrong.

My mom talk about me going to China again.... I don't want to go!!!! I DON'T WANT! How many times she wants to ask? I know it's good to use Chinese in the future but I don't want to learn in the uinversity. Can you imagine how hard is that?? I never learn Chinese before, even once! How can you simply put me like that!? OMG = =". But I guess, I won't have any other choice... I'm a good daughter, ain't I??

I know how you feel, I realise it.. But it kinda hard to actually decide to really accept your feelings. It's really a sudden to me. I didn't imagine and think that you have this kind of feelings towards me. But I don't hate you... I like you more instead I think^^". But I don't wanna trap myself into the feelings even more 'cause I'll not be able to hold myself together. I don't wanna hurt myself and you also. I know we can make a good couple since we have so much things in common but the time is just not right. But if you ask me to be yours, if you don't care it will hurt you or painful to you... Then I'll be there for only you.... Even though I'm scared I'll be yours 'cause I'm yours....

Thailand

2008-05-22T08:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday is the worst day ever! I don't know why I had such a bad luck.. So pity to myself because I just couldn't believe it....

My luggage's wheel came out one side which I had to push more effort to carry it into the front of my condo.
When I reached airport, I found out that my flight would be delayed by 2 hours.
I never get the correct burger of what I've ordered.
My seat on the plane was occupied by another people before I got my seat back.

Oh my god! I don't know what day of yesterday. I didn't do anything wrong, I didn't kill a mosqitoe, I didn't break my friend's leg or didn't sleep too late... Why I got such a bad luck...? Never mind, it's already passed. I'll just take it as a curse for skipping school lessons.

The photo that I pushed my smile out after so many bad things happened.

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Today I went around to tell my relatives and friends that I'm already here. It was not fun at all since the weather is damn hot! I felt like I'm in the oven when I rode my bike... Just can't take it, it's too hot here. So I stoped at my grandma's house for resting. I continued to knit a scarft for someone that I have a promise that I'll give him on his birthday but I didn't so I have to finish it soon and give it to him. (I might be a good person but in the same time I can be the real bicth who is ready to kill you at any moment.)

I got to ride a Phantom today! The gear of this bike is different than normal bike so I got learn it but it was damn damn hard! I asked my uncle to teach me but I couldn't go so far and instead I never get to the second gear! How pathetic was I!? I'll try it again soon, haha. I'll definately get it done!!!! Watcha!

Training with the Phantom

Now for friends : Hope that everyone stays cool and happy! Wish everyone for a good luck and do your best for mother tongue!!!

Lilijang just playing around with me again = =. I feel quite uneasy towards him nowadays... He always tried to say something that will suspend me ( He told me that) . So I just couldn't understand him in such a way and his words made me go blank (like 'What is that?' kinda thing) .

Love is never meant for playing, think again before you think you fall for someone...

Let's tomorrow come

2008-05-20T07:48:00.000-07:00

We had an Oral Examination today. It was terrible!!! Oh gosh! I was distracted by her actions (my examiner) ! She kept her eyes out of me and then kept yawning and gave me a look! Is every teacher like that!? I know Mr Lim is not the one.... I saw my reading got 7. But the picture discussion is totally sucks! I don't know where to start since she just said 'begin'.... Then conversation, she asked me for 7 questions! I really don't know how to answer because my mind just mixed up and shut down. Thus, everything that came out from my mount was totally rubbish!

I came back home to get my ticket and passport to confirm. After I had a shower, I went to Kathip(my tuition place) to ask my tuitor (Victoria or aunty Vic) to confirm my ticket for me. Everything went well and I got my ticket at last.

So I'll be in Thailand tomorrow....

How nice it is.....

I can escape from stressful lifestyle now, haha. Although it just for 3 weeks, it still better than nothing isn't it?^^

I've got the scan of newprint from Dephanie!!! Lionel(5/2) asked me today that wheather his face look weird or not in the newprint. Then I just laugh and answer, "Absolutely not!" Then he just gave me a look of hesitation means that he just believes me in a half = =".

For all of the boys! Please smile more! You won't die if you smile! So be happy go lucky!

Because I'm going back tomorrow so I can't adjust the contrast and brigthness, sorry to Prang. I'll do when I am in Thailand ok?

Now for friends : Sorry for going back in a sudden but My dad won't be free after tomorrow so I have to go back as soon as possible! I'll miss you all, do not worry!

Sunshine and Moonlight are best friends!

Chocolate

2008-05-19T07:08:00.000-07:00

Today, Dephanie, Prang and I went to eat Thai food at Golden Mild. We ate like 5 person involve at the table. It was really delicious though^^. We went to meet Jian Wen, CCy, Melvin and Linur(is the spelling correct?) from class 5/2 at bugis. All agreed to watch Chocolate movie.

It was really fun!!!!! But I guess everyone want to vomit after watching this movie. It's like watching bloody sunday. Every scene must have someone bleed.. However, I just like it and want to learn Muay Thai so much!

We went to take a newprint afterward. They acted so shy (I mean the boys) and they got only one act which is sitting in one position= =". But They made an effort to smile though, haha. Dephanie will give the scan of newprint another time because she is tired after tuition at Holland^^. So I will post the pics next time!

I had a nightmare last night... It was Max. I have no idea why he appeared in my dream and it was so real! Damn it! I feel so bad now 'cause I recalled back to that time. 'How could he does that to me?' This question is being repeated inside my mind all the time since I woke up tis morning. It's so heart breaking to think about it. It was like it was yesterday that he was really gone. I still can feel his presence around me! How can I move on like this!? How!? I really don't know!!! I really miss him so much since the day we were apart but what can I do now? Absolutely nothing....

Encouragement

2008-05-18T08:35:00.000-07:00

Today is another tiring day, it really is.... I slept at 3 plus yesterday because of this stupid blog ^^". I tried to find blogskin and found one that is my favourite, it end up didn't work! I just felt so depressed since I already changed all the html code and edited all the photos = =.

I woke up at 10 and showered, turned on my laptop to continue on doing my blog. I found this skin catch my eyes. At first, it kinda EMO skin like black BG all the EMO pics so I edited it to a better feelings myself (uses my phtos of course^^).

Later, I went out for tuition at Kathip around 1.30 and came back home about 7. I have another tuition at 8... My life is so busy!!! I have no reason why is that so! Actually, it's understandable because Jimmy(tuitor) need to work at weekday now and his work end around 7 so it kinda hard for him to rush to teach me + he'll be damn tired. Tuition at Kathip is usually on sunday so I can't change.

I asked Jimmy to go through the Amaths mid year exam paper with me because I've FLUNK my paper... He didn't disappoint with my paper though, he satisfied with my performance instead. He said that I know my stuff and know how to do every questions, it just that I always make a strange mistakes... (He made me complacent again >_<") But it is really true! I just realise that I really did a funny mistake like 9-1 = 5...(?) I failed primary school math! Damn! But I don't want to disappoint anyone again Mr Lee, Jimmy and my friends ~ I'll work harder! (although I don't know yet I'll really do it or not ^^")

★ Recall back to Monday 12 May ★

We had a class outing on that day. It was very fun though but I don't know why most of friends it was boring(?). I enjoyed myself so much because I ran here ran there nonstop haha. I will just post pics since it have passed ^^.

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Special thanks to SHILA!!!!

: Shila! I wouldn't make this blog nicely without your help!!! Thank you!!!