I really hate it when people throw a temper on me... I mean if you don't like it or I do anything wrong then just tell me nicely that you don't like or you hate the way I do so I will understand. You are temmoered, I also tempered. You think I like when you are mad and angry with me? OF COURSE NOT!!! Nobody likes that! OMG! Dad, why you did this to me!? I love you, you know? You disappointed me a bit but what can I do you are my dad afterall... I will think that I'm wrong...


I'm going to visit my friends at another province today(YES~!!!). I hope I can go there soon but at this time, my dad is having a meeting with his guest!!! And I don't know what time he will finish T^T...


I wish I can go back to Singapore faster... Now I miss there so much hahhaha. Jian Wen even count the day for me..I'm so touched! I miss Nanthini, Shila, Emma, Prang, Jian Wen, Idros, Prang, Huiching and many more!!!

You are so demanding, desparate, arrogant, stubborn and childlike yet I love you so much.... I will be missing you 'cause I can't online... And yesterday you also never online = =" sad... But I will be loving you and missing you always^^, my love.

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I've lived for 17 years now. I think I've passed through too things for this age. It's not like I hate to grow up but at the same time I just want the time to stop. My life is totally fixed! I have been so tiring of this life but I just couldn't do anything. I want to have a freedom, I don't like to be isolated by anyone. It's just like a bird is inside the cage. I like to dream, I like beling myself. But the surroundings just blend me into another thing that I don't want to be... To tell the ture, I never dreamt and never want to have such a luxury life or a big house or a room full of teddy bears. I just want to be a normal girl who live and have ordinary life like a country girl. I'll be very pleased to be like that. I hate a big house without a lot of people. It feels like so quiet and lonely and liveless = =. I like small house which every member stay together with a smile fills on their faces. However, it will never happens in reality...

In fact, reality is scary than anyone could imagine. People live, people die and people fight. They fight for their rights although sometimes it's too much and even cause somone's life. Those people is scary. I don't like to compete, may be my point of view is quite strong to this extent. I mean everyone can live together without competing, power or selfishness. But this world is just changed as time passes and people forget the truth about living.

Love is just something that give me power and happiness. I like to watch people success, it makes me happy. But it's so heart breaking to see someone suffer. However, the ture is that God judge us equally and everyone get back what they've done. God loves his children and never want to punish if his children aren't wrong.


My mom talk about me going to China again.... I don't want to go!!!! I DON'T WANT! How many times she wants to ask? I know it's good to use Chinese in the future but I don't want to learn in the uinversity. Can you imagine how hard is that?? I never learn Chinese before, even once! How can you simply put me like that!? OMG = =". But I guess, I won't have any other choice... I'm a good daughter, ain't I??



I know how you feel, I realise it.. But it kinda hard to actually decide to really accept your feelings. It's really a sudden to me. I didn't imagine and think that you have this kind of feelings towards me. But I don't hate you... I like you more instead I think^^". But I don't wanna trap myself into the feelings even more 'cause I'll not be able to hold myself together. I don't wanna hurt myself and you also. I know we can make a good couple since we have so much things in common but the time is just not right. But if you ask me to be yours, if you don't care it will hurt you or painful to you... Then I'll be there for only you.... Even though I'm scared I'll be yours 'cause I'm yours....




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1. My luggage's wheel came out one side which I had to push more effort to carry it into the front of my condo.
2. When I reached airport, I found out that my flight would be delayed by 2 hours.
3. I never get the correct burger of what I've ordered.
4. My seat on the plane was occupied by another people before I got my seat back.

Oh my god! I don't know what day of yesterday. I didn't do anything wrong, I didn't kill a mosqitoe, I didn't break my friend's leg or didn't sleep too late... Why I got such a bad luck...? Never mind, it's already passed. I'll just take it as a curse for skipping school lessons.

The photo that I pushed my smile out after so many bad things happened.

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Today I went around to tell my relatives and friends that I'm already here. It was not fun at all since the weather is damn hot! I felt like I'm in the oven when I rode my bike... Just can't take it, it's too hot here. So I stoped at my grandma's house for resting. I continued to knit a scarft for someone that I have a promise that I'll give him on his birthday but I didn't so I have to finish it soon and give it to him. (I might be a good person but in the same time I can be the real bicth who is ready to kill you at any moment.)

I got to ride a Phantom today! The gear of this bike is different than normal bike so I got learn it but it was damn damn hard! I asked my uncle to teach me but I couldn't go so far and instead I never get to the second gear! How pathetic was I!? I'll try it again soon, haha. I'll definately get it done!!!! Watcha!

Training with the Phantom

Now for friends : Hope that everyone stays cool and happy! Wish everyone for a good luck and do your best for mother tongue!!!

Lilijang just playing around with me again = =. I feel quite uneasy towards him nowadays... He always tried to say something that will suspend me ( He told me that) . So I just couldn't understand him in such a way and his words made me go blank (like 'What is that?' kinda thing) .

Love is never meant for playing, think again before you think you fall for someone...

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We had an Oral Examination today. It was terrible!!! Oh gosh! I was distracted by her actions (my examiner) ! She kept her eyes out of me and then kept yawning and gave me a look! Is every teacher like that!? I know Mr Lim is not the one.... I saw my reading got 7. But the picture discussion is totally sucks! I don't know where to start since she just said 'begin'.... Then conversation, she asked me for 7 questions! I really don't know how to answer because my mind just mixed up and shut down. Thus, everything that came out from my mount was totally rubbish!


I came back home to get my ticket and passport to confirm. After I had a shower, I went to Kathip(my tuition place) to ask my tuitor (Victoria or aunty Vic) to confirm my ticket for me. Everything went well and I got my ticket at last.


So I'll be in Thailand tomorrow....


How nice it is.....


I can escape from stressful lifestyle now, haha. Although it just for 3 weeks, it still better than nothing isn't it?^^


I've got the scan of newprint from Dephanie!!! Lionel(5/2) asked me today that wheather his face look weird or not in the newprint. Then I just laugh and answer, "Absolutely not!" Then he just gave me a look of hesitation means that he just believes me in a half = =".

For all of the boys! Please smile more! You won't die if you smile! So be happy go lucky!

Because I'm going back tomorrow so I can't adjust the contrast and brigthness, sorry to Prang. I'll do when I am in Thailand ok?

Now for friends : Sorry for going back in a sudden but My dad won't be free after tomorrow so I have to go back as soon as possible! I'll miss you all, do not worry!

Sunshine and Moonlight are best friends!

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Today, Dephanie, Prang and I went to eat Thai food at Golden Mild. We ate like 5 person involve at the table. It was really delicious though^^. We went to meet Jian Wen, CCy, Melvin and Linur(is the spelling correct?) from class 5/2 at bugis. All agreed to watch Chocolate movie.

It was really fun!!!!! But I guess everyone want to vomit after watching this movie. It's like watching bloody sunday. Every scene must have someone bleed.. However, I just like it and want to learn Muay Thai so much!

We went to take a newprint afterward. They acted so shy (I mean the boys) and they got only one act which is sitting in one position= =". But They made an effort to smile though, haha. Dephanie will give the scan of newprint another time because she is tired after tuition at Holland^^. So I will post the pics next time!

I had a nightmare last night... It was Max. I have no idea why he appeared in my dream and it was so real! Damn it! I feel so bad now 'cause I recalled back to that time. 'How could he does that to me?' This question is being repeated inside my mind all the time since I woke up tis morning. It's so heart breaking to think about it. It was like it was yesterday that he was really gone. I still can feel his presence around me! How can I move on like this!? How!? I really don't know!!! I really miss him so much since the day we were apart but what can I do now? Absolutely nothing....

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