I know Os is still going on tomorrow!!! But I'm too stress la!!! No mood to study!!! This is really suck I know but what to do!? So I found something to release my stress! Hohohooo~ I became a model!! Woohooo!!! Self-model, anyone heard of it? hahah let's see!

Self-model set

Aoy-style set

Hahah!!! That's all~~~

I'm pretty, ain't I??? ^^

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We went to eat before the show. We used only 16 minutes to eat up 'cause when my sister reached West Mall was already 7.16 and the show was at 7.30.... = =" We entered the cinema around 7.40 and it already started! Geee!!! Sigh... Whe the show finished we went to comic shop. I called out 'onnie' then one guy turned. *embarrass* But yea he seemed to stare at me for a while and kept looking if I'm wrong... Did he followed me?? I don't know, may be he wanted to see a gift for someone or may be he wanted to see the movie that played inside the cd stall or he might see his girlfriend at the bukit Batok station... I was hoping that he would get my number.. What a waste, he didn't come to me. Sigh... My sister said I think too much, yea may be....

Why I have no luck with boys!!!??? Pathetic....

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On 15 oct, I have Thai exam.. It was hard but as usual I came out after 1.5 hours.. I can't stay for 3 hours you know. I guess Prang did better than me. At least, she wrote the format of the letter correctly. Sigh.. I did not write the format at all and according to the instruction of 150 words but I bet others wrote about 1 and half pages. Never mind that, I don't care about it anyway.


Yesterday was my Science Practical exam. Surprisingly, Physics was so easy although I didn't do the last question but I was able to draw a graph and answer the calculation question. Chemistry?? It was terrible! I mean I know how to do, I know what was present and what was not. But the conclusion part was so.......!!!! I don't know how to write and I just wrote crap... = =" Whatever it was or would I do well or not, I wont' bother about it now.



During the waiting period, we (me, nanthini, emma, thi and shila) were playing truth or dare. It was fun though. First dare of mine was to touch CCY's leg and smile at him but it turned out I lugged at him instead. His face was like (??) hahah, it was cute though. I didn't do truth at all 'cause it's boring you know. We already don't have a secret and I don't wanna know other stuff much also. First dare of thi's was to go to talk to Ms Tan but she didn't want so she talked to the wall instead although it looked like she laughed at the wall. First dare of shila's was to tell Arif Zul that she loves him^^. I like that part. I called Arif Zul to come to us and then he really came then shila kept laughing then she said that your hair was so nice, your body was something I couldn't remember all then she said that's why I love you. He was like what ?? you what??? hahh but his sense was fast he asked whether we play truth or dare. He was good! (I mean in a sense and looking^^") Then nanthini's dare was to bully YJ like asked for her to break up with her boyfriend 'cause nans was in love with him. hahahah!!!! Mr Li!!! I also don't want la....oops sorry... ^^" She was so shocking I thought although I didn't' go to her also but her face seemed like she doesn't know what to do. Then nans came back and laugh said that our classmate were so intended to know what was going on. *giggles* My second dare was to go to Li and told him that I like him and will he consider to break up with YJ and come to me. *vomiting* He did say 'No'... I was quite disappointed but in the end he said that YJ said that he is her toy and she is just playing with him... What a girl... His message behind this seem to mean that he would come to me if YJ dump him... = =. BAKA! Never mind, I don't care, it was a dare.





I like hadzwan. He is so good and changed a lot after having his new girlfriend. I bet she is very kind and understanding. Yesterday, he asked me so I am single now. Of course then I said nobody wants me. He laugh and said no no. He asked me whether my heart ache when lilijang broke up with me. I hesitated to say but I said "yes, a bit". He was like oh so it's like that. He offer me a favor that he would find a new boyfriend for me,haha. How nice of him, he also said that he can find any races which race I want. I burst out with laughter, haha. I said I don't want to think about it right now, I don't want to have. Like he can see through me, he said that I don't want to be hurt anymore. I was shock a bit but yes it is. I don't want to be hurt anymore, too painful T^T. But then I said got 2 old men are after me, they are 31 of age. He laugh again and criticised me. I acted like I was upset and he was apologising me a lot. I was kidding I told him. He still confirmed that he wants to find me a boyfriend but I smiled and walked away. If he doesn't have a girlfriend, I think I will go for him. haha. What a nice guy.

I love Chuck Bass. Well, after I watched gossip girl. I'm totally in love with him although his eyes were for blair lol. But yea, I love him 'cause he's a playboy and yet he loves only one person although their relationship seems to be complicated but I give this couple 10 points.
I can't imagine that he is english. He speaks American so fine. However, I like his British accent more, so sexy. I like the way he plays the role of Chuck, it wans't so him. He doesn't seem so much like a playboy in reality. He seems more gentleman instead. That's why I couldn't help but in love with him.....!!! *hotness*


P.S. I wanna go back Thaialnd so much....

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I went to school on Friday. It was nothing much, I didn't learn much I mean. I rather stay at home study. I went there for the sake of science practical briefing but it was like nothing to me. Sigh...

Went to Erah's house for Hari Raya on Saturday. Her mom was so beautiful and kind!! I went there with Nanthini only. Emma failed us by not coming.. No need to talk about it. I was eating more than the one who said hungry, that was Nanthini. She was the one who complaint all the time that she was so hugry to death but in the end, she ate like half of my food = =. Erah's cousin was very cute! His name is Riski (?) I guess I remember correctly. He was coming to me and sit on my leg, YAY!!!! How adorable! I gave him a kiss before boarding the bus^^ .

Why I look so odd(ugly) in theses pics!? Sigh....

I was having a tuition today. It was so hot (dead)! Studying amaths like crazy and still don't know how to do that much! SAD! It was so frustrating because I don't know how to do work and the guys who sit around me were talking about sex = =. In your heads have only these kinda things huh!? Sigh... Before reached home, I was kinda shopping alone, haha. What I bought? Hahhaha! All the foods, of course!

When I got home, everyone was shouting and in chaos. I wonder what was happening and then they were blaming me that I forget to bring my handphone... I forget my handphone so what I thought... They said uncle and aunty were asking to go have a dinner outside. My sister immediately called aunty said that Aoy was back, so yea we got to eat outside!!! hahaah.

We went to eat steam boat, yay!!! We were eating like crazy ( like we never eat anything for 5 days). The first order came then finished fast. Aunty ordered again and finished. The third order seemed slower, hahaha. But in the end, there was the fifth order, hahahha!!! Power!!!

I was playing camera with me sister after eating finish... Love her ^^

P.S. >> Need to study for the sake of Os!!! Hang in there!!!

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The past loves make guys look disgusting in my eyes... Eeehh! They are too boing and awful. Sigh... However, I don't mean to anyone so don't take it to heart^^. I want a real man, ya know, like really man. Not the type of unstable and unsteady. I'm 18 now and I can't see the guys of my type. They must be around 20 something.. When I will meet??

And There is this guy who is after me. He is old! Around 30 and yet come for me. Why am I so attractive to the old man? He ssems nice but kinda off to the odd purpose. So I told him to get lost. I know I'm not that good but I'm polite enough to tell him. I don't wanna give hope.. The ones who do are the worst. They make you fell and in the end don't want to respond to what they did. These guys are totally and really **** off!

Although I don't like playboy but I find them attractive. Of course they do, if not how can they be a playboy. Playboy have two types. First, they don't care about girls and see girls as thier toys. They are just bastard but I guess they can be a very good friend to you. So if you have this kind of persn make them your friends better. Second, they flirt around but they only love thier girlfriend. This type is more to be with. I would love to! Hellooo! Any this tyoe of playboy out there!?



I'm going to school tomorrow and get some paper of sciences back to practice^^" . I hope teachers won't yell at me (sorry for not going to school).

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All right here are the problems... What is going on around me? I don't know.. I don't wanna care but those people are close to me and all... Is my expectation too high for you all? Or I think too much?? Or you are really the worst after all??

It doesn't make any sense.

I don't blame anyone AT ALL if you don't wanna go grad night. It's up to you people. If you don't wanna come for your sake or for my sake or whoever sake then don't give a damn! Although I want you to come to hear my speech out and to be there to cheer for me, it's your choice. I don't wanna hear 'Oh I might go, I'll see first.' Can you make people trust you like that in the future? How are you gonna handle important thing when in the future you are the head of all? If you already decided so be it. No need to depend on others. They can't help you, they will never feed you when you are hungry or give you money when you are brankrupt. Please wake up and understand the real world!

Tell me straight or immediately when there is anything to do with me. Do not wait till next year then open your mounth. I won't die after knowing something. Even though it makes me sad or disappointed, I'll more happy when you don't keep things away from me. Are you that scared of me? Or are you afraid that I will hit you to death? ARE YOU CRAZY TO THINK LIKE THAT?? Please.. I'm not that kind of person. I know I will make noise but it will go off after sometimes. So why would you take time to sew your mounth up and not to tell me. Isn't it better that you take 1-2 minutes to tell me instead of hiding from me for a week?

And when I try to make up something or to talk to someone after they accidentally say something they shouldn't out, there must be some people get wrong idea.. I do not understand this... What do you think?? I will scold you?? I will swear at you?? Or I will kill you? Oh COME ON!!!! Am I like that to you?? Am I that violent in your eyes?? I'M DISAPPOINTED! How many years we are together now? And you still don't know me. I wanna cry to death after realising that you know? How hurt it is you know that or not? Oh yea how can you know, you don't even understand me... Pathetic loser!

Now I really wanna be alone...

Seriously....

After all this things happened, it makes me realised so much that I shouldn't have a high expectation.

Although how I wish I would want you to get the same feelings as mine, it doesn't make any good 'cause I believe in karma. Actully I don't wanna hurt you and make you suffer like I do 'cause I know if you get this it wil break you through your small bone and you won't be able to stand. I'm a good friend, ain't I? Sigh....

This is the unfair world anyway, what can I say...?

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It doesn't do any good when I go school. I'll become complacent that I already study at school so I can slack at home. But actually it's not!!! I just bluff myself through T^T. After went to school for a week that nearly to Os, I just realised that I didn't do revision at all. Woke up so early, travelled all the way to school, have tuition at afternon and night make me tired till I don't have time for revising!

Why am I like this!!??

That is the reason I asked my guardian to call vice-principal to confirm that I can study at home, sigh... Last weekend spent whole time with da and ma. No rivision has taken place at all... And I need to use the whole of monday to rebuild myself, to re-motivate myself again... When I start to read Geo, it was already 12 something T^T... Why....?

Today woke up at 9.30, wrote a bit of notes for Geo continued from the previous night... Arghhh! And I gone with 'day-dreaming' again. Why is it so difficult to focus on study?? Can someone tell me?? I tried, of course, but I guess it's not enough....

I hope I can do well.... I really hope that my laziness won't be so strong and capture me not to do anything!!!!

After reading huiching blog I wanna study a bit (a bit only). But I will study again tomorrow... I can't study till 2 or 3 am although yesterday I was up around 1 something T^T. It just happened, sometimes... Not ALL the time but I want it to be, sigh....

Never mind.. Let's hang in there! ^^

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My parents arrived on 3rd october and I went to pick up them late. Actually, I didn't pick them at all, we met later at the hotel. It was because I didn't see the time. By the time I was ready to go out of the house, they already arrived at the airport... What a daughter, sigh...

We were quite lucky I guess, haha. It was drizzling that time and had a thunder as well but it ended up never rains! Thanks god!^^ Oh yea, this BBQ was for my sister's birthday.... >_< ! I am quite jealous of her since my parents came for her birthday but not mine but never mind at least they came to visit me^^.

Happy Birthday To You!!!

The next day we went to Orchard and walked around the town then ate at swensens (? spell like that? ). We had a great time though and we went to find speaker but couldn't and we came back home. Mom said she swill send the speaker from Thailand to me instead haha!!!

They went back to Thailand yesterday!!! Why they have to go back so fast!? I still want them to stay here T^T. Homesick in progress....

Never mind, dad will come again, he told me. So let's work hard for Os!!!!!

Aoy hangs in there!!!!!

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