All right here are the problems... What is going on around me? I don't know.. I don't wanna care but those people are close to me and all... Is my expectation too high for you all? Or I think too much?? Or you are really the worst after all??

It doesn't make any sense.

I don't blame anyone AT ALL if you don't wanna go grad night. It's up to you people. If you don't wanna come for your sake or for my sake or whoever sake then don't give a damn! Although I want you to come to hear my speech out and to be there to cheer for me, it's your choice. I don't wanna hear 'Oh I might go, I'll see first.' Can you make people trust you like that in the future? How are you gonna handle important thing when in the future you are the head of all? If you already decided so be it. No need to depend on others. They can't help you, they will never feed you when you are hungry or give you money when you are brankrupt. Please wake up and understand the real world!

Tell me straight or immediately when there is anything to do with me. Do not wait till next year then open your mounth. I won't die after knowing something. Even though it makes me sad or disappointed, I'll more happy when you don't keep things away from me. Are you that scared of me? Or are you afraid that I will hit you to death? ARE YOU CRAZY TO THINK LIKE THAT?? Please.. I'm not that kind of person. I know I will make noise but it will go off after sometimes. So why would you take time to sew your mounth up and not to tell me. Isn't it better that you take 1-2 minutes to tell me instead of hiding from me for a week?

And when I try to make up something or to talk to someone after they accidentally say something they shouldn't out, there must be some people get wrong idea.. I do not understand this... What do you think?? I will scold you?? I will swear at you?? Or I will kill you? Oh COME ON!!!! Am I like that to you?? Am I that violent in your eyes?? I'M DISAPPOINTED! How many years we are together now? And you still don't know me. I wanna cry to death after realising that you know? How hurt it is you know that or not? Oh yea how can you know, you don't even understand me... Pathetic loser!

Now I really wanna be alone...

Seriously....

After all this things happened, it makes me realised so much that I shouldn't have a high expectation.

Although how I wish I would want you to get the same feelings as mine, it doesn't make any good 'cause I believe in karma. Actully I don't wanna hurt you and make you suffer like I do 'cause I know if you get this it wil break you through your small bone and you won't be able to stand. I'm a good friend, ain't I? Sigh....

This is the unfair world anyway, what can I say...?

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